And so many more…..
Have all decided together to wreck havoc with the lives of us mere mortals in Mumbai.
I have a feeling that they are taking turns to show off their powers. So it rains like crazy and then there is a small lull. They are probably exchanging places to get onto the throne to wield their power.
Thank God (which one ?)they haven’t unleashed it to their full potential.
We are stranded, wet, disorganized, but most of us are safe.

When are Ra
Sol Invictus
going to show their power?

What a game they play !

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God is happy

It’s been a while dear. How are you ?

She replied …….

He came into my life as a storm .
Created havoc in my life.
Left me a wreck.

He came into my life as a tsunami.
Swept me away.
Left me in the deep depths of the ocean.

He came into my life as a tornado.
Swirled me high and hurled me back to earth far from my moorings.

He came into my life as a volcano .
Burnt me up to ash .
Left me as the dark dreary lava , devoid of life.

He came into my life as an avalanche.
Carried me in his path.
Left me buried under snow, stone cold dead.

He came into my life as an earthquake .
Toppled me from my very foundations.
Left me as just a heap of dust and debris .

He came into my life as a flood.
Destroyed me and left me as nothing.

He came into my life as a blizzard .
Blinded me , left me to pick up the pieces of my life.

He came into my life as a predator.
Hunted me , tormented me and left me a mass of mangled flesh.

God watched and clapped. Another god sent calamity . Another life destroyed .

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Love Lost

To be read after the article on Love…..

How does one live life if the all searing Love is suddenly taken away ?

You were in Heaven. You were all dizzy headed , crazily , desperately, passionately ,deeply , longingly in Love . Your eyes were shining , the cheeks flushed and a permanent tingle in your body . You woke up to his calls , his love filled texts professing eternal love for you , till your dying day .
You had rosy pictures of the future , living with him , sleeping facing him in a tight embrace after a glorious togetherness where you both touched heaven and then could not yet stop kissing , hugging , holding each other ever so close.
You knew this was permanent . This sort of Love that one finds cannot reduce , cannot be lost .It’s once in many lifetimes.
You spent your entire day thinking about him, loving him every millisecond of the day . He was yours. He could never be anybody else’s. No one who has so much passion for you can ever stop loving you. You were so very happy . His love made you so comfortable , you could be just the way you wanted to be, he always looked at you with wonderous eyes . Enjoying every bit of your craziness . There were no restrictions. Only unlimited Love, happiness, togetherness, oneness.
You had your special songs{Ed Sheeran ,take a bow }, special words of endearment , the kind you had never imagined. So full of intimacy.
You were so well tuned together . Emotionally, intellectually , sexually . You were soulmates. Destined to live together this birth and many more.Everything was perfect . There were no negatives. You did your best to let each other have freedom when so desired and had decided to never try to change the other. Because you fell in love with this person just the he was and he was deeply in love with you for just the way you are . He promised you marriage , a wonderful, beautiful , happy life so full of togetherness . You saw pictures in front of your eyes of a wedding day , of your life together, your holidays and travels together ,your fun time together.

So ,Darling , how do you cope when all of a sudden this world comes crashing down ? You are devastated ! It’s as though the earth beneath your feet has disappeared ! You are reduced to just so much heap of dust . The tears are never going to dry up. You don’t want to live. Nothing in this world can ever be the same again. Nor will you ever find another soulmate.
So what happened to the once in a lifetime story ? Where did all the promises go ? Are men like that ? Can they be no other way ? You wonder whether it was you ! No, no, no. No,Sweetheart . It wasn’t you . Its Life. It moves on. Sometimes carries two people together. Often it leaves one behind .
For men, the soulmates are there only till they need them. Emotionally, or as a pillar of strength , or maybe to just while away the time. You gave your 200 percent Darling. You are the Awesome one. Not a guy who carries you to heaven and then drops you like a ton of bricks. He ,dear, is a coward. He has nothing called commitment in his lexicon. The lexicon of love was full of falsehoods. Commitment ..the word didn’t exist for him. There was not a more dastardly cowardly act than what he heaped on you.
But Ma Durga is made strong . You have your days of crying , despair, depression. Go through it all. It will be a catharsis. Exorcise all those demons of a deep sense of helplessness, unworthiness, ‘what went wrong’ thoughts. Think of the ways you would like to die, think of those who would suffer immensely at losing you . Do you think he cares ? Baby, he has moved on . He isn’t going to look back. He is not going to run back to be with you. So why should you think of giving up on life . He could not hold on to the wonderful gift God had bestowed on him. Let him go back to the sordid miserable life he had before he met you. You have always been awesome. And always will be. You are a Star ! Bright , shining and beautiful.
You shall rise like the phoenix ! You will conquer it all. The depression and despair.
Have faith in yourself . Look in the mirror everyday and say 10 times that you are the most Awesome woman in the world. You don’t need someone to be happy. You are Happiness personified. God , surely has something better planned for you. And if not! Well,. God is a man too. Utterly frivolous in his actions of playing with people’s lives and their emotions.
So Sweetheart ! Smile . Be Happy. Be strong. You will always be stronger than any man.
Men don’t deserve women.

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Love …

Before I start writing this let me put up a disclaimer. I like to go into the world of make believe. My nonspecific posts are my imagination. Please do not apply this to my life, as was done after my post on Life. Got a few calls asking me why I was depressed and suggestions to bring me out of it. Folks, please do not do that. That’s why I haven’t written for so long.


LOVE…… the most beautiful 4 letters clubbed together in the English language. Over  eons authors, poets ,playwrights and all of us have tried to describe it , define it .

Love……it grips your mind , your very soul. It is  a soul searing , mind blowing , body aching , desperate emotion. It’s a raging fire within you . It’s flames consume you to the very core of your existence. It burns you, devours you , and makes you have no other thought in your head except your lover’s . You don’t just love your lover. You love him/her crazily , desperately , long for your lover with an intensity you’ve never felt before, never known that you are capable of such extremely strong emotions .

A word , a sentence said in an ordinary normal way, but when you hear it from your love, it makes your heart do crazy somersaults, your heart dances the waltz , your skin tingles at the words, your body shivers and there is a hollow in your stomach which is so sweet and exciting!

You live your everyday life. But when you have such a passionate love , does your day pass like any other ? Definitely not. Your lover’s face is in your minds eye 24×7 , you desperately long to talk , to communicate , to be with your love. The world is unaware of your emotions. Unaware that while you are mouthing ordinary sentences , you are visualising in your thoughts those love filled eyes that look straight into your soul , that make you melt and be in such a happy wonderful place where no one exists but the two of you.

If only one did not have to live the day to day life ! How awesome it would be to spend the rest of your life in each others arms, lost to the world, no thought of anyone but you two. The true love in your eyes, the caring touch, the soft caress, the never ending kisses and love and oneness and togetherness , the passionate lovemaking which sends you  orbiting into the seventh heaven ! This is love. This what you live for ! This is what you die for !

A love like that happens only once in so many lifetimes. Or does it even ? Is a love like this possible ? Or is it the poet’s imagination ? Is love just a ploy , created by poets so that we try to find sparkle in our own mundane lives, desperately reaching out to others in order to find that all evasive love? Do we live for it and die without finding it ?

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A Simple Liberating Act


After 8 yrs !

Yes…. I am happy today . I have got my personality back ! I have once again become what I like to be. What a difference  a HAIRCUT makes to one’s psyche. You read that right. A small step helps us to feel free , liberated , happy, young and excited .

I was growing my hair for the last 8 yrs. Started about 3 yrs before my son’s wedding. I wanted to tie up my hair in various styles for the wedding . Wanted to show off my earrings . Everyone said that the latest fashion was for women to have long hair.

I did cut my hair after the wedding . But never had the courage to really chop off my lovely tresses. it has been a slow process to gather the guts to do what I did today. Get a haircut…no,no …..a BOYCUT.

It has been one of the most liberating moments . I have always had short hair for most of my adult life. When I was strong , young and attractive. Today , I felt the same again. It was as though my personality had been subdued all these intervening years, and I got back my charm , flamboyance and joie de verve just with this simple action.

My Dad always loved me with a haircut.Not for him the hairdo . I feel I have made him happy too. Love you Dad.

My mom, my sis , all my close friends , all those who love me…..come give me a hug!

I am HAPPY !

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Vaikunth Flower Show

I was in one of my lazy moods , scrolling Facebook , reading peoples’ personal posts on travel , friendships , dogs , how to make something in 5 min and all the various narcissistic photographs. ( Those always get more than 100 likes ).

Suddenly I perked up. There it was. Something after my own heart. A post on something I just love so. You all know that. Yes , right. It was a flower show. The Vaikunth flower show . With more than a million flowers , is what the ad said.

I had to go. I JUST HAD TO GO THERE. The next few days were spent in thinking about it, gathering my like minded friends together and adjusting a suitable time to go.

We were a happy excited trio who set out on the Saturday afternoon. So much laughter and chatting , getting caught in traffic, hankering for tea ! It was all part of the fun and set our moods just right.The arrangements by Piramal realties , the people who put up the show , were impeccable . We got our well deserved tea as soon as we reached.

But….what was this ? Even at the entrance the beauty and the color of the flowers was a sight to behold ! If this was just outside imagine what awaited us inside !

And , gosh , what was this quaint little train doing here ? Two small wooden trains were arranged to take people around for an initial glimpse and later one could browse around on foot. We stood in the queue for the train and had free popcorn ,cold drinks and candy floss. Haven’t had candy floss in years !

The flowers were beautifully arranged . The landscaping was marvellous ! Myriad colours , beautiful shades and hues all superbly arranged ,was a sight to behold ! Rows and rows of various flowers , conglomeration of them with just the right colours put together ! Should I appreciate this one or that ? Should I take panoramic pics or should I lovingly capture each of natures creations separately ! It was all so beautiful.Words fail me.

They also had attractions for those who are not so madly in love with flowers as the three of us.There was a wooden horse beautifully made. Various animal models covered with grass and otherwise. Monkeys hanging from trees , donkeys bearing fruit and what have you ! An elephant here and a camel there, models of the Rajabhai tower , Victoria terminus and all our heritage buildings which Mumbai is so proud of. There was a Japanese garden, a Spanish one ,a Brazilian one with Jesus the Redeemer blessing everything in sight. A Persian one , and a magical Banyan tree with orchids hanging from it. None of us could stop clicking pictures ! All the people around had happy faces , the children running to and fro in excitement. Only a glorious show of Nature can bring out the best in human nature.

Soon it was evening and dusk.And it all came alive. The place was lit like a magical Neverland ! The Banyan tree in particular was an enchanted magical fairy tale tree. If I could feel transported into a fairy tale world , I wonder what the children felt ! Another round of photographs was a must. Though this had more to do with human creation, albeit done beautifully . The natural colours of the flowers was changed into deeper hues with the lighting. Another added feature to the magic of the evening was a band playing songs in the background. After having taken our fill of all the beauty around us  , reluctantly we decided to leave.

But it wasn’t still over. There were snacks and cold drink, tea and icecream arranged for free for all the tired but happy people who had visited. And arranged in a lovely garden with colourful water fountains on display. Oh , and I forgot one more beautiful thing. On arrival we were so busy looking at the flowers that we didn’t look up at all. But while we were leaving we saw those huge chandeliers which were lighting up the entrance with white and lavender fairy lights. We just had to stop and take more pics. And ever so many mandatory selfies too .

It was a wonderful Saturday evening spent in the company of my dearest beloved friends ! I yearn for more…..

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Happy Days

Do you want to know how I spent one whole evening a few days back ?

I went back in time. Not the sci fi one in which you travel many many centuries back in a time machine.  But the age old  road .  Down memory lane…. And what took me along this beautiful road , holding my heart, my hand ?  My albums ! My albums full of happy photographs , happy people , happy occasions .

It’s  not something today’s generation values . They have their photographs uploaded on Cloud , on pen drives and all things virtual . The pleasure of holding an old yellowing album , the slightly fading photographs , the old book fragrance ….it’s not for them. I  belong to the older generation and so find albums irreplaceable . The wait for the prints and the sorting out of the dates and arranging the photos sequentially was all so pleasurable . Every photograph fixed in the album was a gateway to the memories .  Times change and so do we. The last 4 years , I too haven’t got prints made for all the wonderful memories .

It is so wonderfully easy to see my son as a baby , see my father and mother as a young handsome couple , see all of us at all stages of life, in a matter of minutes. The photographs can be seen in seconds . All the way back to 70 yrs or more. There is no need for a computer , a hard drive  and the slideshow to begin looking at photographs.

And , can I hold the computer to my face and kiss the picture of my Dad who passed away 17 yrs back ?  No. Because there are none of his pictures on the laptop . But , I do hold his photograph close to my face and kiss his picture , and remember all his fatherly affection and I feel protected by his love for me . I caress his photo and yearn once more to be in his arms ,the way he held me when I myself was a little girl in a frock and pigtails.Can we hang the laptop on the wall to show us our dear departed ones ? But seeing my Dad looking down at me always gives me strength .

For the last 5 yrs , I have been meaning to make an album of my son’s wedding photographs. Yes, I am able to see those in the laptop whenever I want. But , now they have got transferred to the hard drive . Will I really make an effort to see them again ? Difficult it is for me to get down to it, considering I am from the net unsavvy generation. Will his children look at an old hard drive to see those pics? How much easier it is to see albums , put a finger on the pic and identify all the people ! Only by looking at all the past photographs will his children be able to identify all his relatives and friends. I think I must set a goal and get down to this very important task. Building memories….                                                                                                                                                        Building happy memories…..                                                                                                                        Creating everlasting visual emotional bonds…..                                                                                 Creating a continuity of generations …..                                                                                           Creating relationships …..                                                                                                                  Creating a past for the future generation !




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